Saturday, January 31, 2015

Soundtrack Saturday (8)

Soundtrack Saturday is a book meme created by Erin at The Hardcover Lover.

Sorry for not posting one for so long.

Today's book is Never Fade, Darkest Minds #2

Beginning: Habits (Stay High)- Tove Lo

Liam: Crash- Jamie Mcdell In your arms- Nico & Vinz

Ruby and Liam: Give your heart a break- Demi Lovato

Climax: If you love someone- The Veronicas

Ruby: You Ruin Me- The Veronicas

Ending: Hall of Fame- will.i.am ft. The Script

Friday, January 30, 2015

Book Blitz: State of Alliance by Summer Lane (Guest Post+ Giveaway)




Title: State of Alliance by Summer Lane
(Collapse Series #5)
Publication date: January 30th 2015
Genres: New Adult, Post-Apocalyptic

Synopsis:

There is no such thing as safe.
For Commander Cassidy Hart, staying alive is only one of her day-to-day problems. As a newly minted Senator of the State of California, she must travel to Monterey Bay with the hope of bringing an agreement between the militia forces and the Pacific Northwest Alliance as the United States desperately battles against the shadow invasion forces of Omega.
But Monterey is not what it seems. The threat of another Omega attack looms on the horizon, and Commander Chris Young – the love of Cassidy’s life – is not the only important person in Cassidy’s life who is keeping secrets. Assassinations, betrayal and startling revelations lie ahead.
The war is now. Fight or die.
Choose your side.
The fifth installment in the international bestselling Collapse Series, a YA/NA post-apocalyptic romantic adventure.

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Review: The Calling by Kelley Armstrong

 Title: The Calling (Darkness Rising  #2)
Author: Kelley Armstrong
Summary:Maya Delaney's paw-print birthmark is the mark of what she truly is -a skin-walker. She can run faster, climb higher, and see better than nearly everyone else. Experiencing intense connections with the animals that roam the woods outside her home, Maya knows it's only a matter of time before she's able to Shift and become one of them. And she believes there may be others in her small town with surprising talents.

Now Maya and her friends have been forced to flee from their homes during a forest fire they suspect was deliberately set. Then they're kidnapped, and after a chilling helicopter crash, they find themselves in the Vancouver Island wilderness with nothing but their extraordinary abilities to help them get back home.

In THE CALLING, the sizzling second book in the Darkness Rising trilogy, New York Times bestselling author Kelley Armstrong pumps up the romance, danger, and suspense that left readers of THE GATHERING clamoring for more.
 
Rating: 5+ Stars
Review: Wow. The Calling was amazing. So beautiful. So many sacrifices though Kelley Armstrong seemed to deliberately numb them with her absolutely brilliant words, and with Maya's beautiful POV. Rafe, Maya and Daniel take Centerstage in The Calling. The story continues from The Gathering, not failing to muss any details. They are tricked and manipulated, and barely survive. But it's the characters that are truly wonderful. They are all unique  and play a big part in their own way. Kelley Armstrong- what an author.

Recommended for: Fans of paranormal, romance and mystery.

Review: True Caling by Siobhan Davis

 Title: True Calling (True Calling  #1)
Author: Siobhan Davis
Summary: Planet Novo, nestled in space twelve hundred miles above the surface of the Earth, is the new home of 17 year old Cadet Ariana Skyee. Confused by the government-sanctioned memory erase and distressed at her impending forced marriage and motherhood, Ariana’s plans for the future are thrown into complete disarray.

As the traumatic events within her family life enfold, Ariana grows increasingly alarmed at the authorities apparent pre-occupation with her and feels progressively more isolated and alone.

Her growing feelings for fellow Cadet Cal Remus intensify as the recently announced pageant, ‘The Calling’, gets underway. Struggling to comprehend the continuous, inexplicable dreams of the mysterious Zane, discovering the past helps shape her future, with devastating personal consequences.
 
Rating: 5+ Stars
Review: Wow. I associate brilliant, awesome, amazing and fabulous with True Calling right away. What a good book. Ariana Skyee and Cal Remus are complete opposites, yet still attracted. I especially liked that good and evil were equally matched. An Interesting and sustaining read. It all ended too soon. I read the last paragraph, like I sometimes do, before I started reading. Wow. Powerful stuff.

Recommended for: Fans of dystopia, unearthly stuff- like post-apocalyptic.

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Review: Bitterblue by Kristin Cashore

 Title: Bitterblue (Graceling Realm #3)
Author: Kristin Cashore
Summary: Eight years have passed since the young Princess Bitterblue, and her country, were saved from the vicious King Leck. Now Bitterblue is the queen of Monsea, and her land is at peace.

But the influence of her father, a violent psychopath with mind-altering abilities, lives on. Her advisers, who have run the country on her behalf since Leck's death, believe in a forward-thinking plan: to pardon all of those who committed terrible acts during Leck's reign; and to forget every dark event that ever happened. Monsea's past has become shrouded in mystery, and it's only when Bitterblue begins sneaking out of her castle - curious, disguised and alone - to walk the streets of her own city, that she begins to realise the truth. Her kingdom has been under the thirty-five-year long spell of a madman, and now their only chance to move forward is to revisit the past.

Whatever that past holds.

Two thieves, who have sworn only to steal what has already been stolen, change her life forever. They hold a key to the truth of Leck's reign. And one of them, who possesses an unidentified Grace, may also hold a key to her heart . . .
 

Review: Amazing. Another epic fantasy novel. But I was a little disappointed. A lengthy novel, I expected Bitterblue to include all the characters form Graceling and Fire. It kind of dragged. And some of them barely got a mention. Bitterblue was the main focus, which I liked and didn't like. But Bitterblue in general as a great book. I just thought it would be different. I did, very much, enjoy Bitterblue. Graceling is a great series, and definitely worth reading. I also recommend reading Bitterblue. I didn't love it, but ti was great I certainly hope Kristin Cashore continues the series.

Recommended for: Fans of mystery, and tales of queens.

Monday, January 26, 2015

Book Tour: Forbidden by L.M. David



Synopsis



The European vampire brood is in decline and the Vampiric council’s rule is shaken amid rumors of an uprising. Their only hope comes from an Oracles’ verse and a name “Julianna.” Moros, as a member of a warrior clan, the Brethren of Erebus, must obey the orders of the Heir Elder, who is convinced finding this young woman is the only hope to save them from extinction. Sent to America, a land forbidden by decree of the European rulers, he arrives only to learn he is exiled, and his family honor in ruins. Angered by this betrayal, he continues the search for Julianna. However, the more he learns, the less Moros believes the mission he is on will clear his name. Moros soon becomes entangled in lies, rivalry, deception, the threat of war, and the wrath of a Pan Celtic God -- and in the midst of this treachery, he finds something unexpected … love.
     

Author bio:


L.M. David has been writing novels since Jr. High School after taking a Creative Writing class and becoming an acquaintance of Lazette Gifford, who is now a prolific writer. Initially drawn to the genre of Science Fiction, a fascination with paranormal/urban fantasy/romance drew her into the dark erotic world of vampires. The more she read about the subject of the ‘undead’, the deeper her fascination with folklore and legends of the vampires became. This is also L.M. David’s first attempt at writing a New Adult novel.

L.M. David, in recent months, has contributed an article to the ezine Vision: A Resource for Writers (http://visionforwriters.com)
L.M. David, when not writing, has varied interest — building computers, making quilts, pillows and does scrapbooking. She has worked as a legal assistant and as a nurse in the medical field. Although born in New Jersey, her family relocated to Southern California and now considers themselves Californians. Her family includes Patches, a stray cat who nosed her way into the L.M. David’s life and Paws, who stubbornly sat on the front porch and patiently waited for hours to be invited inside. That was six years ago.

L.M. David has a blog at: http://www.wordpress.com/lmdavid54 and an author’s page on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/authorLMDavid








Book Blitz: False Finder by Mia Hoddell (Excerpt + Giveaway)









False Finder


Release
Date: 01/13/15

Limitless
Publishing

400
pages



Summary
from Goodreads:

Cora has been able to detect lies since
she was born, she’s…a False Finder.



However when blackmail, betrayal, and lying are all the population has to
protect themselves, it makes her dangerous. It also makes her a target.

Because of Cora’s ability, Rogan Carvelli—London’s biggest criminal leader—has
been trying to acquire her for years.

Cora has learned to survive and remain undetected—at least until one
careless mistake causes her friends to betray her.


Sold to Carvelli, Cora is only left with the help of a secret organisation to
escape. She knows nothing about them, but they have saved her too many times to
ignore.

However, the closer she gets, the clearer it becomes…
Their motives are far from innocent.

Sunday, January 25, 2015

Blitz: The Queen’s Gift by T.R. Allardice (Interview+ Excerpt+ Giveaway)




Title: The Queen’s Gift by T.R. Allardice
Publication date: December 15th 2014
Genres: Fantasy, Young Adult

Synopsis:

Fifteen-year-old, late-bloomer Jean Elliott dreams of becoming a Genie like her mom. When her family relocates to Tokyo, Jean is forced to use sleight-of-hand tricks to fool everyone at school into believing that she’s a normal Preternatural or risk expulsion. When her power finally appears, it comes in the form of the Queen’s Gift–an unspeakable magic that strips power from all Preternaturals and heralds the arrival of the new queen.
After an absence of two hundred years, not everyone wants the monarchy to return and they’re willing to go to great lengths to keep the status quo. When buried secrets rip Jean’s family apart, she has a choice to make: Walk away and hope for the best or embrace the power that’s known to lead to madness in order to save her family.
Jean’s greatest dream has turned into her biggest nightmare and no matter how hard she tries, there’ll be no wishing the Queen’s Gift away.

Purchase: 


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T.R. Allardice writes young adult, new adult, and humorous horror stories. Most of what she writes incorporates several genres. The content won't always be 'safe'. What's the fun in that? She is a member of the Horror Writer's Association, Novelist Inc. and the Author's Guild. She has thirty-one books published under another pen name. To find out more about her upcoming work, go to: www.trallardice.com

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Saturday, January 24, 2015

Book Tour: The One Thing by Briana Gaitan (Review+ Giveaway+ Interview+ Teaser Images)



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Title:  The One Thing
Series: Hollywood Timelines Book Two
Author:  Briana Gaitan
Genre:   Contemporary Romance
Release Day:  January 16th 2015
Synopsis:
When everything falls apart, he's the one thing that holds me together.

Ginger Teague may seem like your typical Hollywood actress with the famous boyfriend, designer clothes, money, and hit TV show, but constantly being in the public eye has its downside.
People seem more interested in her chaotic relationship with her on again/ off again boyfriend than her acting career,and Ginger isn't dealing with her new found fame in a way she always envisioned. She masks her unhappiness with too many parties and an unhealthy habit of binge drinking. As much as she wants love, men find her as a pretty amusement, not the type of girl you take home to mom and dad.
When she meets Caspian Norwood, they quickly begin a regimen of flirty emails.
He's a struggling musician that doesn't quite fit her idea of the perfect boyfriend.
He's older, mysterious, cultured, knows exactly what to say and do in all the right situations, and Ginger can't help falling for him. But the world is against them, pushing them apart, and it's beginning to feel as if they're only meant to be friends.
The One Thing is a standalone novel and book two in the Hollywood Timelines series. You met Ginger in The Last Thing, now hear her love story.

(Intended for ages 18 and up)
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Add to your Goodreads shelf
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About the Author


Briana Gaitan grew up in the South, but calls herself a geek at heart. She is a blogger,author,and fangirl who loves Star Wars, Star Trek, and Jewelry (bet you never thought you'd hear those three things in a sentence together) For fun, she loves watching any show on the SyFy channel, relaxing with her family, reading, and listening to indie music (sometimes all at the same time). Briana loves to write stories where there are no limits to the imagination. She is also the co-author of the fantasy Ethereal Underground series.


Don't miss the other books in the Hollywood Timelines series


The Last Thing: http://amzn.to/1wt61WH





Review:

~Thanks to the author for providing a copy in exchange for an honest review~

Brilliant. What an exciting book. Ginger deserved her happy ending. The One Thing, told from Ginger and Caspian's view (later in the book) was about Ginger's hard life. Ginger's POV was interesting. Caspian's POV was amazing. I actually didn't really mind that Quinn and Chase from The last Thing were in the background- The One Thing was an interesting and sustaining read, and I certainly didn't get bored of reading it at all. Hollywood is such an interesting topic, and Briana Gaitan tells it all fabulously. I'm certain the next book will be great! Amazing, just fantastic.


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Friday, January 23, 2015

Review: Never fade by Alexandra Bracken

Title: Never Fade (The Darkest Minds#2)
Author: Alexandra Bracken
Summary: Ruby never asked for the abilities that almost cost her her life. Now she must call upon them on a daily basis, leading dangerous missions to bring down a corrupt government and breaking into the minds of her enemies. Other kids in the Children’s League call Ruby “Leader”, but she knows what she really is: a monster. 

When Ruby is entrusted with an explosive secret, she must embark on her most dangerous mission yet: leaving the Children’s League behind. Crucial information about the disease that killed most of America’s children—and turned Ruby and the others who lived into feared and hated outcasts—has survived every attempt to destroy it. But the truth is only saved in one place: a flashdrive in the hands of Liam Stewart, the boy Ruby once believed was her future—and who now wouldn’t recognize her. 

As Ruby sets out across a desperate, lawless country to find Liam—and answers about the catastrophe that has ripped both her life and America apart—she is torn between old friends and the promise she made to serve the League. Ruby will do anything to protect the people she loves. But what if winning the war means losing herself?
Review:  Amazing. Ruby- I never forgave what she did in The darkest Minds. It was hard to forgive her after Never fade, but I finally did. Never Fade was just Brilliant. Magic. Liam wasn't a bi part of Never Fade, and when he was he started off not himself. Her eventually changed back to the Liam from The Darkest Minds. I couldn't stop reading, no matter how much I loved/ hated Never Fade. It was too addicting. I was entangled in it/. I hope In The Afterlight will be even better. Ruby is so plagued with choices to make, with deadly consequences. I didn't realise this till I was well into Never Fade. The ending was a little disappointing. A little too cliffhanger like. But just enough. Never Fade is certainly a good book.
Recommended for: Fans of Dystopia.

Review: Fire by Kristin Cashore

Title: Fire (Graceling Realm #2)
Author: Kristin Cashore
Summary: It is not a peaceful time in the Dells. The young King Nash clings to his throne while rebel lords in the north and south build armies to unseat him. The mountains and forests are filled with spies and thieves and lawless men.

This is where Fire lives. With a wild, irresistible appearance and hair the color of flame, Fire is the last remaining human monster. Equally hated and adored, she had the unique ability to control minds, but she guards her power, unwilling to steal the secrets of innocent people. Especially when she has so many of her own.

Then Prince Brigan comes to bring her to King City, The royal family needs her help to uncover the plot against the king. Far away from home, Fire begins to realize there's more to her power than she ever dreamed. Her power could save the kingdom.

If only she weren't afraid of becoming the monster her father was.


Review: Stunning. When I first heard that Fire wasn't about Katsa and Po, I was disappointed.  But I grew to like the new characters. Fire is an intelligent girl, and Brigan a great commander. Their story had to be loved. Wow. Kristin Cashore has created another brilliant tale. Fire is so emotional, so sad,  yet so brilliant and amazing. Fire herself is also beautiful and brilliant,  as I said before. Her world was unknown to the world of graceling,  but it is so different yet so similar. Bitterblue,  the next book, well, we already know about Princess Bitterblue, from Graceling, I just hope that Fire will be part of that world, for Katsa was not a part of Fire. Incredible, intoxicating and moving are 3 words to describe Fire. Wow.  Kristin Cashore is a must read.

Review: Graceling by Kristin Cashore

 Title: Graceling (Graceling Realm #1)
Author: Kristin Cashore
Summary: Katsa has been able to kill a man with her bare hands since she was eight - she's a Graceling, one of the rare people in her land born with an extreme skill. As niece of the king, she should be able to live a life of privilege, but Graced as she is with killing, she is forced to work as the king's thug.

When she first meets Prince Po, Graced with combat skills, Katsa has no hint of how her life is about to change.

She never expects to become Po's friend.

She never expects to learn a new truth about her own Grace - or about a terrible secret that lies hidden far away...

Review: Stunning. Graceling is more than fantasy Much more. Graceling- better than fantasy. WOW another powerful tale. Thos amazing authors have done it again! So many good books in a row. Katsa is a brilliant heroine, written beautifully. The ending broke my heart (just a little) though. It was different from Allegiant. A great fantasy read.
Recommended for: Fans of adventure novels with many kingdoms, Like Tamora Pierce's Tortall.

Book Tour: Infernal Ice by Joceline Farrah (Review + Giveaway)


Title: Infernal Ice by Joceline Farrah
Publication date: December 18th 2014
Genres: Erotica, Paranormal Romance

Synopsis:
Beneath the sun kissed skies and the glamour of South Beach, Stygians and mortals co-exist under an uneasy alliance.Governed by strict rules  known as Stygian protocol, they live by one most sacred and cardinal rule: Never comingle with mortals.
Grief stricken, caseworker Jessa Belle Jones loses herself in her job, after the love of her life, Scott Dempsey disappears without a trace. When her father announces her betrothal to Abbandon, the General of the Stygian Armies, Jessa-Belle turns to Havah, the Tinseller to thwart her father’s plan by finding her own Stygian noble to marry.
Wrought with vengeance, Stygian Raum Corvus, searches Miami Beach for retribution against the dark mage who took everything he’d cherished.
But when destiny links Raum path to Jessa’s plight, will fate keep them together or will Stygian conventions rip them apart?


Thursday, January 22, 2015

Review: The Gathering by Kelley Armstong


Title: The Gathering (Darkness Rising #1)
Author: Kelley Armstrong
Summary: Sixteen-year-old Maya is just an ordinary teen in an ordinary town. Sure, she doesn't know much about her background - the only thing she really has to cling to is an odd paw-print birthmark on her hip - but she never really put much thought into who her parents were or how she ended up with her adopted parents in this tiny medical-research community on Vancouver Island.

Until now.

Strange things have been happening in this claustrophobic town - from the mountain lions that have been approaching Maya to her best friend's hidden talent for "feeling" out people and situations, to the sexy new bad boy who makes Maya feel...different. Combine that with a few unexplained deaths and a mystery involving Maya's biological parents and it's easy to suspect that this town might have more than its share of skeletons in its closet.

In The GatheringNew York Times best-selling author Kelley Armstrong brings all the supernatural thrills from her wildly successful Darkest Powers series to Darkness Rising, her scorching hot new trilogy.

Rating: 5+ Stars
Review: Beautiful. Kelley Armstrong writes brilliantly. Intoxicating. What a brilliant book. I've been waiting for this for quite a while now, and finally reading it- it's amazing. It definitely isn't disappointing. I loved The Gathering! UR was a great read, and I didn't dislike any part of it. I love it all. All the characters, the scenes, the parts... Fabulous. An excellent tale. WOW.
Recommended for: Fans of paranormal, especially Twilight by Stephenie Meyer.

Review: The Infinite Sea by Rick Yancey

Title: The Infinite Sea (The 5th Wave #2)
Author: Rick Yancey
Summary: How do you rid the Earth of seven billion humans? Rid the humans of their humanity.

Surviving the first four waves was nearly impossible. Now Cassie Sullivan finds herself in a new world, a world in which the fundamental trust that binds us together is gone. As the 5th Wave rolls across the landscape, Cassie, Ben, and Ringer are forced to confront the Others’ ultimate goal: the extermination of the human race.

Cassie and her friends haven’t seen the depths to which the Others will sink, nor have the Others seen the heights to which humanity will rise, in the ultimate battle between life and death, hope and despair, love and hate.
Review: Wow. I didn't appreciate how brilliant The Infinite Sea was at the start- at first, I didn't like it at all. I hated Book one (Part one) of The Infinite Sea, but I really liked Book Two (Part two). Fabulous. So poetic and beautiful.But also very sad. I'm so excited for book three! Can't wait to see how good it will be. I really loved Marika and Cassie's POV, Marika was such a big part of The Infinite Sea. I didn't hate Vosch. I thought he was poetic. But evil, certainly. He is a special kind of character. Cassie though, I have an on-off relationship with. Sometimes I love her, sometimes hate her. A great book, very inspiring.
Recommended for: Fans of dystopia.

Review: The Last Thing by Briana Gaitan

Title: The Last Thing (Hollywood Timelines #1)
Author: Briana Gaitan
Summary: Plagued by past mistakes in both love and life, Quinn Bardot is in a bad place. With nowhere else to turn, she escapes to LA clinging to the promise of a fresh start. 

Chase Crowley is known for being selfish and unbelievably persistent. All he's ever wanted is to become a successful actor. But now that he is about to have it all, he finds that something is still missing. Money and fame isn't what he expected.

After a fervent encounter, the two of them are thrown into a situation that neither is prepared for. Can Quinn extinguish her fears and let Chase in? Can Chase learn to put someone else's needs before his own?

The Last Thing is a novel all about love, Hollywood, and accepting what life throws at you even if it is the last thing you want. 
Review:  ~Thanks to the author for providing a copy in exchange for an honest review~

Brilliant. Briana Gaitan tells the beautiful tale of a girl blamed for the death of her boyfriend, an incident she doesn't remember. That Girl- Quinn Bardot. She leaves to Hollywood, where she moves in with her cousin, Ginger Teague to excape the murderous looks. Chase Crowley. Movie Star. Player. Man Whore. They meet at a party Ginger forces her to go to. What happens after- just Hollywood. Addicting, This version of hollywood is so real it's easy to imagine it as The Hollywood In real life. The Last Thing isn't a typical love story. No Happily ever after. WOW.
Recommended for: Fans of realistic books.

Review: The Iron Trial by Cassandra Clare and Holly Black

Title: The Iron Trial (Magisterium #1)
Author: Holly Black and Cassandra Clare
Summary: Most kids would do anything to pass the Iron Trial.

Not Callum Hunt. He wants to fail.

All his life, Call has been warned by his father to stay away from magic. If he succeeds at the Iron Trial and is admitted into the Magisterium, he is sure it can only mean bad things for him.

So he tries his best to do his worst - and fails at failing.

Now the Magisterium awaits him. It's a place that's both sensational and sinister, with dark ties to his past and a twisty path to his future.

The Iron Trial is just the beginning, for the biggest test is still to come . . .
Review: Magic. What a great book! I love how Holly Black and Cassie Clare decided to defy standard fantasy rules, and surprise readers with a different outcome! Callum Hunt is of the age when he should be trying bard to get into the Magisterium, but he;s not. Warned that it's a dark and terrible place, he tried hard to fail The Iron trial, the entry test. but he can't fail enough, and he gets in. from there, he has to be very careful.. because his choices have consequences, that could be disastrous... i haven't read Harry Potter, but I've heard a lot of it. From that, I don't think The iron Trial is anything like Harry Potter at all.Everything has similarities, but Harry potter and The Iron trial are pretty different. A great read, full of mischief. Fantastic characters. I really enjoyed it for sure. The Iron Trial was an interesting book, and it never got boring- there was always something happening. The Iron trial- Fantasy with action. A great mix. Wow.
Recommended for: Fans of Harry Potter, fantasy.


Book Blitz: A Hot Winter by C.J. Lake




Title: A Hot Winter by C.J. Lake
Publication date: December 2nd 2014
Genres: New Adult, Romance

Synopsis:
*Story contains explicit/steamy scenes that are intended for mature readers.
**All books in C.J. Lake’s Attraction Series are standalone novels with NO cliffhangers.

It was supposed to be a simple job.  A favor for a friend, nothing complicated.  But that was before I realized who Emma was.  I knew I wasn’t imagining the tension between us–still there and getting stronger every second.  She wanted to keep things professional now.  I suppose we’d have to try–because if we gave in…once would never be enough…

I never thought I’d see Matt Winter again, and now here he was.  Working on my house!  Making me nervous, flustered, and almost breathless.  Disarming me and making me feel things I haven’t even considered since my husband died four years ago.  No, I don’t want to want him.  My life was in order before he came, and I’m leaving Boston anyway.  Forget Matt.  It’s the only logical option.  So…why can’t I stay away from him?